You've Ruined Me

I used to live in Nashville, and I have had many singer-songwriter friends over the years. My bother is a professional musician. I could never boast any of their talent, but once in a while I’ll hear a whole new song in my head. Usually they’re coming of age tales of lessons learned. As someone who has survived a narcissistic relationship, and has suffered many setbacks, my songs always sound a bit country in my head.

This was one of them:

Round this mountain I go, yet again

Wondering if it’s because of my deep sin

Mama told me better, daddy did, too

Got a sinking feeling they were talkin’ bout you

Round this peak a few dozen times

How did I miss all those signs?

Should’ve walked away, should’ve run very far

Now all I’m good for is singing in this bar

You ruined me

I can’t stand the thought of a man

You ruined me

Now all I can do is front this band

You opened my doors

Paid for all my meals

Took me round the world

Gave me all the feels

Planted dreams of mini you and me’s

Now I walk away with arms empty

You told everyone in town it was all my fault

When really I had you, you’d been caught

You ruined me

I can’t stand the thought of a man

You ruined me

Now all I can do is front this band

You took me round the world

Filled my head with dreams

I was happier then

Anyone could see

You opened all my doors

Gave me all the feels

You’d be dead if singing this song could kill

Here’s hoping melody mends and heals

Round this mountain I go